Changes

It has been three years since my last entry and looking at my past posts I am quite surprised at the "old" me. These few years seem to have changed my worldview and my self-view. I have not yet decided if I have changed for the better or for the worse but part of me chooses to not care about this differentiation because trying to label my life as good or bad is arbitrary and purely temporary, what matters is how I choose to let my experiences define me as a person. 

I am grateful that I have overcome so much, that I have traveled so far, that I have won some battles and lost others, that I have come to cherish a family that loves me unconditionally, that I have finally recognized that love is pure and of supreme importance, that I am not a robot or as strong as I delude myself to be, that I am far from perfect, that I possess the courage to fail and learn from my failures, that I am finally making life choices backed by reason and not emotions (especially fear), that I recognize that I need to grow, that I am gradually discerning the roots of my emotions, that I find joy and contentment with myself, that I am not living to please others, that I am intentionally stepping out of my comfort zone, that... So much has changed, and I am grateful for all that (the good and the bad). 

These days I am taking a stab at veganism. It is a big change for me as I have never been particularly fond of fruits or vegetables. But, the costs of eating meat (for me and for the planet) is just too high to be justifiable. I have officially completed my first month of plant based whole food diet and I have to say that I am surprised at how much I enjoyed it. I feel healthier and happier (literally)! I am liking it so far and I hope to continue on.