我們昨天剛從真愛品德營回來，我發現我跟神之間有一種獨一無二的關係。感謝主！我發現我好愛祂！
今天我去辦了離校程序。回來時想起大學五年，從不認識神到現在，神的恩典好多好多，但我卻一直沒發現。有時我會覺得像我這種人神怎麼會愛，但是回想我生命的改變，我發現祂是最在乎我的。在這五年裡，我發現我不會哭、不會笑。我發現我不知道什麼是愛。但是神用最有力的方法把我敲醒。雖然我曾怨恨祂、曾懷疑祂、曾挑戰祂、曾放棄祂，祂卻陪我走過生命的低潮。我一直都不知道，直到今天我真的相信我不想放棄神了。
祂調整了我的眼光，以前只在乎成就的我拿到畢業證書應該很高興，但是今天當我拿到畢業證書時，我問自己，我是不是在浪費神給我的時間。我覺得畢業證書只是一張紙，我要追求的不是一張紙，而是神賜下的豐盛生命。我不要忘記神的愛和神的應許！我不要追求那屬世的、那無意義的，我要追求神！
Thursday, June 29, 2006
Friday, June 16, 2006
Center
I have to remember to keep God at the center of my life.
Outside of Him, life is chaos, life is meaningless.
Outside of Him, life is chaos, life is meaningless.
Thursday, June 15, 2006
「真愛奇蹟」的歌詞 （很美～）
倆人的背影 比一人甜蜜
一輩子到老 總有你相攜
天涼了加衣 心煩或失意
這酸甜苦辣 唯有你知悉
在人生路上 我曾尋尋覓覓
那茫茫人海 誰是知己
我相信真愛 真愛見證奇蹟
我體會上帝 上帝就是應許
我相信真愛 真愛見證奇蹟
我體會上帝 上帝就是應許
一輩子到老 總有你相攜
天涼了加衣 心煩或失意
這酸甜苦辣 唯有你知悉
在人生路上 我曾尋尋覓覓
那茫茫人海 誰是知己
我相信真愛 真愛見證奇蹟
我體會上帝 上帝就是應許
我相信真愛 真愛見證奇蹟
我體會上帝 上帝就是應許
Changes
Lord, thank You for making miracles in me.
In retrospect, I started out as one fearful soul, always on guard against the world.
Today, I am willing to try and love the world.
Lord, keep on making changes in me.
I want to become a person after Your own heart.
In retrospect, I started out as one fearful soul, always on guard against the world.
Today, I am willing to try and love the world.
Lord, keep on making changes in me.
I want to become a person after Your own heart.
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Disoriented
Everything is such a mess at this stage (according to my standards).
I feel very disoriented. Argh!
My knees are throbbing. Boy! That pain is very distracting! I can't concentrate on studying for my Philosophy final. Ah!!!! Huh, God help me!
I feel very disoriented. Argh!
My knees are throbbing. Boy! That pain is very distracting! I can't concentrate on studying for my Philosophy final. Ah!!!! Huh, God help me!
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
Warfare in all forms
War from within and war from without.
Satan's attacks all my weak spots: it first demolishes the happiness from within, bringing about a shadow of dark clouds.
After that, it moves on to inflicting bodily injuries.
I felt depressed and now my knees are swollen from a slippery fall.
But still, regardless of all that warfare, God is victorious.
He has won! He is my stronghold, my rock! I have nothing to fear!
Satan's attacks all my weak spots: it first demolishes the happiness from within, bringing about a shadow of dark clouds.
After that, it moves on to inflicting bodily injuries.
I felt depressed and now my knees are swollen from a slippery fall.
But still, regardless of all that warfare, God is victorious.
He has won! He is my stronghold, my rock! I have nothing to fear!
Monday, June 12, 2006
爭戰中的喜樂
因我們並不是與屬血氣的爭戰，乃是與那些執政的、掌權的、管轄這幽暗世界的，以及天空屬靈氣的惡魔爭戰。
以弗所書6：12
我要完全依靠祢，因祢已得勝。
我要抓住祢賜下的應許：「祢要平平安安的去！」
我要平平安安的去！
Hallelujah！
Protect me
Lord, I will learn to praise you during hard times.
Protect me Lord, protect me!
Don't turn away.
I'm scared. Protect me!
Protect me!
Don't let me run away because of fear.
You are victorious.
I will proclaim Your name.
But, Lord, I am still weak; I am still scared.
Protect me!
Protect me Lord, protect me!
Don't turn away.
I'm scared. Protect me!
Protect me!
Don't let me run away because of fear.
You are victorious.
I will proclaim Your name.
But, Lord, I am still weak; I am still scared.
Protect me!
Sunday, June 11, 2006
Self Reminder
Peace is a blessing from Him.
At times, challenges and hardships sneak up on us like a predator on its prey. Yet, in God, we are blessed in that he has prepared everything for us. When we feel that life is taking a downturn, faith has to take over.
We have nothing to worry about in life because He knows it all. He gives us all we need, even before we know we need it. Just rely on Him. His gifts are abundant. His peace is out of this world. Hallelujah!
Well, we do have to worry about one thing. That's how do we manage our lives so that it says, "I love you god," loud and clear.
At times, challenges and hardships sneak up on us like a predator on its prey. Yet, in God, we are blessed in that he has prepared everything for us. When we feel that life is taking a downturn, faith has to take over.
Faith finds a way when there seems to be no way.
We have nothing to worry about in life because He knows it all. He gives us all we need, even before we know we need it. Just rely on Him. His gifts are abundant. His peace is out of this world. Hallelujah!
Well, we do have to worry about one thing. That's how do we manage our lives so that it says, "I love you god," loud and clear.
Our life is a gift from God; what we do with that life is our gift to God.
Saturday, June 10, 2006
He provides!
Yes, I know that He is Jehovah Jireh.
Yes, I know that I have nothing to fear in Him.
Yes, I know that His will is good.
Yes, I know that He calls me to Him in His own way.
Yes, I know that He forgives all my trespasses.
Yes, I know that He has an amazing plan in store for me.
Yes, I know a lot of things.
But, I am weak at heart.
I still tremble and fall apart.
Fear sprouts deep within my heart at the notion of serving Him.
Although I know life's ultimate goal is Him, knowing does not guarantee doing.
The simplest thought of giving myself to Him, surrendering my soul to Him, is both humbling and scary.
In that lies the meaning of life. In it lies His blessings.
Yet in me lie the pits of self-doubt and other weaknesses.
My prayer:
God give me strength.
My future is in Your hands.
You know me inside out.
Lead me in Your path.
Guide me with Your light.
Shine Your light on me.
Have pity on me.
Take me in Your embrace.
Carry me through hardships.
Mold me into the person after Your own heart.
Demolish my self-centeredness.
Show me how to surrender myself.
Teach me how to do everything for You.
Mentor me.
Instruct me on Your love and show me how to love You.
Give me the chances I need.
Have mercy, yet don't spare the rod.
Yes! I devote this life to You.
I may regret as a result of momentary weakness.
But, You reign supreme.
Call out to me in Your loving voice.
Let Your constant reassurances take me into the depths of the world.
Wherever You lead me, I will go.
Give me strength.
Let me remember that you are my God, my center.
This life is Yours, not mine.
You are my God, my Lord, my fort.
Outside of You, I have nothing.
I do not yearn this life, but the life in You.
This world is dead to me.
Oh Lord, let me always remember that You are number one.
You are the one and only reason I am alive.
This life is Yours.
This future is Yours.
Take me where You please.
Just remember that I am weak.
I need You.
Never cease speaking to me.
Let me be close to You.
There is no distance between You and me.
Let me respond with a loud "I love You Lord."
Yes, I know that I have nothing to fear in Him.
Yes, I know that His will is good.
Yes, I know that He calls me to Him in His own way.
Yes, I know that He forgives all my trespasses.
Yes, I know that He has an amazing plan in store for me.
Yes, I know a lot of things.
But, I am weak at heart.
I still tremble and fall apart.
Fear sprouts deep within my heart at the notion of serving Him.
Although I know life's ultimate goal is Him, knowing does not guarantee doing.
The simplest thought of giving myself to Him, surrendering my soul to Him, is both humbling and scary.
In that lies the meaning of life. In it lies His blessings.
Yet in me lie the pits of self-doubt and other weaknesses.
My prayer:
God give me strength.
My future is in Your hands.
You know me inside out.
Lead me in Your path.
Guide me with Your light.
Shine Your light on me.
Have pity on me.
Take me in Your embrace.
Carry me through hardships.
Mold me into the person after Your own heart.
Demolish my self-centeredness.
Show me how to surrender myself.
Teach me how to do everything for You.
Mentor me.
Instruct me on Your love and show me how to love You.
Give me the chances I need.
Have mercy, yet don't spare the rod.
Yes! I devote this life to You.
I may regret as a result of momentary weakness.
But, You reign supreme.
Call out to me in Your loving voice.
Let Your constant reassurances take me into the depths of the world.
Wherever You lead me, I will go.
Give me strength.
Let me remember that you are my God, my center.
This life is Yours, not mine.
You are my God, my Lord, my fort.
Outside of You, I have nothing.
I do not yearn this life, but the life in You.
This world is dead to me.
Oh Lord, let me always remember that You are number one.
You are the one and only reason I am alive.
This life is Yours.
This future is Yours.
Take me where You please.
Just remember that I am weak.
I need You.
Never cease speaking to me.
Let me be close to You.
There is no distance between You and me.
Let me respond with a loud "I love You Lord."
Friday, June 09, 2006
恩典
真的是從天上掉下來的恩典～
今天領到優良僑生獎學金。
（沒想到延畢生也可以獲獎）
最不可思議的是去年我也領過，
所以連兩年都當優良畢業僑生。
哈，好好玩！當兩次的優畢僑生，還領兩次獎～
大恩典喔～
在我需要錢 to cover 契服時，祂就為我預備了2,000元耶！！！
He provides！
Hallelujah～～～
來奉獻 ^^
今天領到優良僑生獎學金。
（沒想到延畢生也可以獲獎）
最不可思議的是去年我也領過，
所以連兩年都當優良畢業僑生。
哈，好好玩！當兩次的優畢僑生，還領兩次獎～
大恩典喔～
在我需要錢 to cover 契服時，祂就為我預備了2,000元耶！！！
He provides！
Hallelujah～～～
來奉獻 ^^
Thursday, June 08, 2006
沮喪
無論對象是他人還是自己
饒恕不簡單
不經大腦說出來的話或做出來的動作
殺傷力太大了
我常常這樣
而最大的受害者就是自己和家人
真的是很對不起他們
經過這麼多年了
想想我也應該要成熟點了
但是反而變本加厲
太自我中心
自己的言語行為都加害於他人
如今終於發現了
但是傷害也已經造成了
饒恕也太晚了
就算可以饒恕
也太難了
饒恕不簡單
不經大腦說出來的話或做出來的動作
殺傷力太大了
我常常這樣
而最大的受害者就是自己和家人
真的是很對不起他們
經過這麼多年了
想想我也應該要成熟點了
但是反而變本加厲
太自我中心
自己的言語行為都加害於他人
如今終於發現了
但是傷害也已經造成了
饒恕也太晚了
就算可以饒恕
也太難了
Stupid me
How do I will myself out of a depressing state?
I care too much about them.
That's why when i hurt them, I can't get over it.
I can't believe how stupid I was to hurt them so deeply.
it will forever leave a scar in their hearts.
I can't forgive myself for doing that.
now, I'm so stressed out about that, I feel depressed.
I'm an idiot. I deserve all the pain, but damn! It is not easy.
I care too much about them.
That's why when i hurt them, I can't get over it.
I can't believe how stupid I was to hurt them so deeply.
it will forever leave a scar in their hearts.
I can't forgive myself for doing that.
now, I'm so stressed out about that, I feel depressed.
I'm an idiot. I deserve all the pain, but damn! It is not easy.
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