He's with me!

Recently, I've come to notice a pattern in my spiritual life. It seems as if I have periods of closeness with God followed by periods of wandering in the deserts. When I noticed this I couldn't help praising God for letting me realize that I had this weakness. By knowing this, I know that I don't have to fight this battle alone. I can rely on Him to help me; I can pray to Him.

"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. (2 Corinthians 12:9)

God alone is my Lord. He guides my every footstep. I will go wherever He takes me. Even though I am dead scared of unfamiliar places/environments, I will pack my bags and leave this place when He calls me. I was never a big supporter of going to Korea for "FangHan," but I was surprised to realize that I wanted that intimate relationship with God so much that I told God that I would go to Korea.

As soon as I had thoughts of going to Korea, Satan put all those doubts in me. It told me that I wanted to go to China during summer for internship; it told me that that was the rational thing to do, since I am an MBA candidate in emerging Asia; it told me that Korea was a bad idea, that people at church used it as a "qualifications test of holiness"; it told me that I did not have any money; it told me that my family was not as economically well off as before; it told me lies, too many lies. All lies.

But, thanks to the Lord. He helped me block all that out. He gave me faith and courage and wisdom to hold on to His word and to the Truth. He showed me His grace and strenghtened my resolve in Him by showing me that He works miracles in my life. When I told my mother that I wanted to go to Korea this summer, I was amazed and speechless when she asked me if I was going with people from church and that she was OK with it. God is truly amazing. He opens doors, clears paths, and rids obstacles for me. I can't help but say: "Hallelujah!!!"