Thursday, October 25, 2007

Ethics class

I was kind of disappointed at the Ethics class today. I guess I was hoping to get some questions answered, but after two hours I realized that this course will not do that. I guess my question or my dilemma of right and wrong under Biblical standards and worldly standards is perplexing me more than ever. I want answers or guidelines that tell me what to think or feel (so as to guide my actions) in circumstances when the Bible says "A" but the world says "-A". When these two standards contradict, I want to know what to do. Also, I want to know the adequacy of my emotions in circumstances of people wronging me and my not being able to forgive them or love them as stated by the Bible. I feel that I'm torn by two sets of standards. I've always avoided conflicts by remaining loyal to my identity of an indifferent student, but the more contact I have with the world, of with Business in general, the more obvious this problem becomes. What standard is right? How should I mitigate the two? I want to surrender to God's will but how do I do that when the world does the glaring opposite? Should I stick to God and become alienated or should I blatantly excuse God and follow the world? I want the former, but at times I feel the latter is unavoidable. I thought my questions could be answered or at least hinted by this Ethics course, but I guess I was being naive. Only God can answer my questions, but I just don't seem to be having a working antenna to receive them. Right now, I'm uncertain as to whether I should continue taking this class. I'm actually afraid that the discussions during class will guide me down the path I feel is inadequate (in the Biblical sense). This situation is not good.

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