Sigh

This specific change is something that I don't see in proximity. It is so far away that I doubt it's even possible.
I admit that I weigh outcomes millions times more than I weigh processes.
To focus a little more on the process and a little less on the outcome is like asking me to move a mountain with my bare hands.
I agree that I do see the need to focus more on the ambience and the relationships amid a meeting, yet it is against my logic to combine such with the pursuit of outcomes. It is necessary, I agree.
Am I willing to put some effort into making it possible? Yes though with reluctance, for I am not completely sold on this.
Today was horrible. Our relationships did take a gigantic stride backwards; I feel responsible and guilty. Lord, where's the way out of this forest?